Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Why I've Been Gone

Hey guys!

It's me Madison. Hard to believe right? I dropped off the face of the planet about three years ago. No warning, just....disappeared. I'm sorry about that. I should have said something, but to be honest, I was embarrassed. But I shouldn't be, so I'm going to share what all happened. (Edit: came to my attention from earlier posts, that I shared majority of this with you, though I don't recall it. But here it is again.)

You see, I've always struggled with anxiety. I've had it as long as I can remember, I remember having it before I knew what I had had a name. I also have OCD, which didn't help with the anxiety.

About three years ago, things just happened, all non harmful things, that made my anxiety flare up. It was bad. I couldn't do what I loved, which was being on here with you all, Twitter, writing, reading, hanging out with my friends. It took me an entire year, after struggling for months, and then getting medication, to get to a point where I could do simple things, like go out with friends, or just sit in my own house, and not feel like an anxiety attack was coming on.

Now, don't get me wrong, I still have the anxiety, it's still there, and I'm very much aware of it, and I battle it everyday, but I can manage it now. I'm a better person than I was before, more aware of what I want from life, I take every day as a gift, because that's what it is.

I want to encourage you to seek help if you need it for anything, may it be mental illness, or a physical illness, because they're all very real, and I would not be here if it wasn't for all the support I got. And, also, God helped me a whole lot. Through prayer and tears He brought me out of the worst of it. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Him.

I won't be jumping head first into things quite yet. The last time I actually finished a story was last summer. Haven't been able to finish anything since, but it's a great story, and I'm hoping...Maybe I'll share it with you all.

The Storm Saga, and the Two Rings Series are still around if you all still want to read them. Though, to be honest, they're kind of embarrassing now, compared to what I'm writing currently. But hey, that's progress.

I don't know about Stars, I may still release it, but I'm not sure. Sorry about all those who entered giveaways. I'm staring fresh, so I won't revisit any past giveaways and such. So I am very sorry if you entered something. I'll have new giveaways in the future, I promise!!

Be patient with me as I navigate things, as I've been gone a very long while. I've missed everyone, and I'm excited to be back. :)

- Madison

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